Monday, May 10, 2010

Praises

TOTAL HUMONGOUS PRAISE TO THE LORD!!!

I'm not quite sure how to say this, because I want to make sure that I am giving ABSOLUTELY ALL the praise and thanksgiving to GOD and that I don't sound like I'm bragging. So forgive and correct me if this is not stated biblically:

God got A's in Organic Chemistry 2 and General Physics 2 in Spring 2010. *beaming smile*

It is whole truth. With every single assignment, lab report, quiz, and test, I was struggling and I had to give it up all to Him. Especially during my tests, I literally had to pray over every single problem. Unfortunately, I felt very discouraged as the both the classes were getting extremely low averages and I wasn't high above them. It was so horrible after the first 2 tests of each course, I wanted to quit after the withdrawal date (where you would get an F on your transcript which is awful). I won't say I'm a very perseverant person, but for an Asian to want to quit a course so badly that F's sounded okay, means it was baaaaaaaaaaaad. But then, my mother comes in and reminds me, that children of God don't quit. We just don't. What the Father has laid before us to complete, we finish, regardless the result. As she was talking (I wish I could translate everything she said verbatim), I was reminded of the major line in Facing the Giants -

"If we win, we praise Him. If we lose, we praise Him."

So, I'm not exactly winning anything with these courses, but that means, if I get an A, I praise Him. If I get a B, I praise him... etc. If I get an F, I still praise Him. I then knew it in my head, but I still didn't realize it with my heart, because I was still worrying (a sin I need to work on). My mother probably prayed hours for me and I felt it. On the week of finals, I was so desperate, I said, "Ok, God, this is it. I don't care what I get, whether it's an A, B, C, D, or F. I am totally giving this up to You. I can't do it anymore, and You are the only one that can carry me through. May Your will be done." 

Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday (NDP), and Friday were awesome days for me. I was free and peaceful. I thought, "Why didn't I do this earlier?!?!" I found out Saturday that I had gotten 96 on Physics (not enough to bring my percentage very high) and 65 on Organic Chemistry. I was able to praise God for both scores. Whatever grade God willed, He would make sure. This morning, before I checked, I prayed, "Lord, I want to check my transcript, but I will still praise You whatever I get." Let's say, I was VERY excited to see the grades and when I told my mother, she was even more excited than I was!! Praise the Lord, for He is good!! He does all for the good of those who love Him and I cannot ever praise Him enough.

I have another praise for my sister Alice, but I cannot elaborate as much on how she was feeling. However, I know God had mercy on her especially with her programming class. I will admit, I took Java after C# and thought it was easier than C# (I look back now and think it's more the probability that the C# professor was the worst I'd ever known), so I suggested that Alice take Java as her "computer class" in her music degree. Never was it made more evident that she and I were created differently. She just didn't get it sometimes, (don't get me wrong, my sister is brrrrrrriiiillliante!!!) and she really did try to understand. Every Tues and Thurs night and Saturday, my Dad spent about 2-3 hours helping her with her homework. I think a week or two before the midterms, my Dad said suggested that Alice quit the course (again, after the withdrawal date). Now, my Dad is NOT A QUITTER (why else do you think he's got a Ph.D. in mathematics and gets addicted to coding programs?!). He was just stressed at work and helping Alice so often was not exactly a relaxing thing to do. Alice also would moan about once a week, "I wish I had never taken this course!!" At which I would cringe and forevermore regret suggesting to my sister to do. But what do you know - Mommy comes to the rescue again!! She speaks similar words of wisdom to Alice and encourages her to press on. (I want to insert here, even though it's after Mother's day: My Mother dear is the BEST!!) Anyways, to make a long story short, Alice continues to study diligently and passes both her midterm and finals with flying colors, i.e. with an A!!! Isn't our God great?! 

He NEVER EVER FAILS!!! 

In Christ,
Victoria


*yipes... talk about long posts...*